Happy? Easter...

Holy Week for us is also holiday week. I find that my Holy/holiday week is hard work. Holy Week is difficult when you are on vacation and trying to have fun at the same time as you are digging deeper into your faith. My emotions are like a roller coaster ride.

I'm finding it difficult to make time and space to reflect on my chosen readings when my normal schedule has totally changed it's routine. I realize now that even though I *thought* I was too busy at home, I was actually held comfortably captive by a life revolving around John's work hours and pre-school days and visiting dad and volunteer time at the church and volleyball and going to curves and computer time and grocery shopping and dinner out and on and on...

Ever since the kids were small we have driven to the west coast for our annual visit. Easter has always been cut and dried. The Christmas baby grew up, was martyred for his beliefs and rose again 3 days later. John always patiently played Jesus Christ, Superstar for me on the car radio, year after year. Somehow, this year, the words have taken on a life that was never there before. Most especially the words "Heal Yourselves" as Jesus is thought to have said while pushed by the growing crowd of followers wanting another miracle.

There is little privacy while on vacation. I'm not complaining about being loved... but even spending an extra 10 minutes in the bathroom elicits concerns for my health. Sitting quietly alone in a room appears a strange occupation. I actually had someone the other day say "what ya doin? meditating or something?"

Well, yeah.
So I need to explain... but somehow it's too private...
so I'm now doing what??? ... posting it for all to see of course :)

well so, ok
Tomorrow is Easter Sunday
Christ is Risen - again.
This for me is Hope renewed that God's plan, while delayed again and again by our stubborn closed minds, will be realized as each of us, one by one, opens our minds and our hearts and welcomes the breath of the Spirit to flow through and fill us with love and compassion for all. We are all One.

"I am the vine and you are the branches"
"I am in the Father and the Father is in me"
"My Father's house has many rooms"

Whether your mother tongue is Christian or another... use this coming day to acknowledge you have a source outside and inside yourself. Open to it and feel the presence of strength renewed over and over.

later man, jan

ps chocolate is also holy, but don't eat too much ;)